Again, putting the goal to walk the dogs this a.m. on yesterday's post helped get me out the door. And what a walk - this might be in the boys' top 10. First of all, it took us 1-2 minutes just to get out of the front yard, because Chester was in full Ferdinand mode and sniffing everything. Finally I told him this wasn't a day trip and we moved on. When we got to the park, we startled the ducks (we do that just by showing up - nervous types) and 2 females herded several ducklings along the bank and into the water. "Dogs! Waddle!" Other males and females stood guard, and several feet up the creek, a group of 5 or 6 males didn't budge. "Honey, could you bring me a beer?" The boys saw and tried to chase 2 rabbits, and they startled the blue egret when they came splashing around a bend in the creek. They got extra wet and muddy today - no lying down on this adventure, there's too much to do! I took special delight in watching the ducklings and the egret (not their fear, their being ducklings and an egret!); the walks are always a nice time for appreciation of and communion with God.
A friend emailed pictures of her own yard - she mows around flowers, too! She has lupines, among other things - beautiful!
Today I also enjoyed/saw earth crammed with heaven in:
- a 2-ish-year-old girl sitting on her daddy's (I assume) shoulders at QT. At first I thought she was asleep, she was leaning against his head and looking down, then I realized she was watching him fix his coffee with that focused fascination kids can have. It was wonderful.
- Grandpa's and my enjoyment of watching Don Knotts reunited with Andy Griffith on a "Matlock" episode - he's a huge AG fan, and DK was as funny as ever
Isn't it hard when people misunderstand you and/or are angry with you, and you can't change their minds, and you have to let it go? I really have a hard time with that. But it's happening to me now, and I sense that, at least for now, I've done what I can except continue to pray for the people involved and let go of my desire for their understanding. Ugh. I hate this. But I'm praying that I'll find God in the midst of this and remain with him. I'm sure there's something I can learn from it all, too.
Goals for choosing life tomorrow:
be present, enjoy time with Grandpa
refuse to get caught up in the drama in my head and emotions re: the misunderstanding - remain with God